sorry i have not written for quite some time now. i guess i will update you on my life? since oh so much has happened since the last time i wrote. first of all... i am bored all the time. i should have read my book for the three hours of nothing i did today, yet i didn't. wow. good for me, eh? i am obsessed with this song, another geometry. i don't really know what it is, but something very weird happens when i listen to certain music. i don't know.. i feel like i just go into a different world, where i see into every one's pains and lifestyles, and my feelings change and get all mixed up... i don't know how to explain. it probably sounds like I'm insane right now, but I'm really not... i don't know.. for example. this song, its on the end of notice to appear, and when i listen to it, i just feel like I'm gone.. i don't know. i have no way to explain it, so for now, i am extremely happy it is fall, and soon winter. there's something about this season that catches me... and i don't really know what it is. i just feel so extremely calm and so much more whole. and while I'm snowboarding i feel so much more different than i ever feel. it's so hard to explain. i can't wait to go snowboarding. i really plan on going as often as i can. hopefully dad will let me skip a few days to go... anyway.. i don't really have much more to say, and i have to go get ready to go to a gay meeting, which i sort of plan on just writing during the entire time... have a good night.